I am moved by the energy about the room. Its bad enough that I have enough of my own thoughts to consume. I find most things interesting, wanting to learn the intricate movements like a dancer spilling out countless emotions on the floor. An athlete in their prime, pushing themselves to the edge without remorse just to be great. Let me be great. I keep telling myself.
Fear of the unknown is as powerful a force to stop anyone. How has it stopped you. Sometimes you recognize this energy in someone else and it becomes you. I guess being strong doesn’t have much to do with how much weight you can push in the weight room, maybe its all about finding the desire to push you.
How does a caterpillar feel in a room full of butterflies? does it wish to change, or does it wish to be what it will be. Accepting the change and adjustments as they come.
I once told someone that I am a very pleasant person to be around, no one will know if I desire their companionship. I use to be worried about others accepting mine, I should have been thoughtful enough to wonder why I would choose to digest life with them for that short period of time.
Truth is I admire you, and I wish to peel the layers back. No make up or hairstyles, clothing that flatters your appearance, who are you. The scary part is once you see who a person is you have a decision to make whether you like them or not. Do you build or do you move on. You see every one is not here for the season yet some are only here for the moments.
If you have the opportunity to meet me at the right time and the right place where I can show you something about me, I hope that you will be able to appreciate the vibe and energy that I create. Embracing the moment is something I feel people so rarely do, I am not in competition with you, but just for a moment I would like to sit down with someone say hello figure out a topic and just build.
Say what you want, feel what you want, I just ask that you understand that what you feel and want are not the feelings and wants of everyone. I want you to inspire me to want something different. I don’t know if that’s before or after the want to feed and inspire you or others to want something more. I’m not talking about monetary gain, but out of yourself and out of life.
I really realize how much life is not promised. And a firm believer of you can be whoever you want to be why cant we focus on ways to be it. I am still working on my story but my current mood- is wondering why people have such a hard time being.